My Story - Corey Vidal
Okay, so I did word-vomit this (albeit painfully slowly, I apologize), and noted a few places where I misspoke, and just want to clear them up.
4:49 - Even though I say I didn’t leave YouTube because of everything that went down, I kind of ran my mouth a bit about being tired of having these relationships with people that never really held any weight in the real world. I make it seem like that was a big reason, when really it wasn’t. Honestly I just left because I was tired of pleasing people, worrying about all the notifications, having this “persona” to uphold, having to answer to people. I just wanted to do my own thing, and was just generally disillusioned with the whole “YouTube thing”, and had lost interest in it all. These are personal reasons that I feel like I skimmed over in my explanation, and instead, talked about something that was related to the rest of the video, but wasn’t really as important as I made it seem.
11:07 - I talk about “Seeing someone who was Alex Carpenter’s groupie…”, I didn’t mean seeing as in dating the person who was Alex Carpenter’s groupie… I mean literally seeing them.. with my eyes.
31:07 - I say “And although Corey and I never met…”, which is a huge misspeak. We did meet at Buffer Festival and I was invited to the YouTube party on the first night, while Ava was there. We spoke at one point, him saying “I’m sorry we didn’t get to do the stuff that we talked about.”, not that it was by any means not going to happen in the future, but just expressing regret that we hadn’t yet found a time to meet up because of how busy he was. And the whole time at Buffer Festival I was feeling like, if he was really your friend, he wouldn’t make you feel excluded; he would have been excited to spend time with you and include you in his life. And even in the months afterwards, when I would try to meet up for coffee with him, he seemed really pumped about it, but then would leave me hanging for weeks and weeks at a time, not even acknowledging.
36:50 - I’m misremembering what he said, and I actually have all the old screenshots of our conversations, but it’s hard to go back and look at them, so I didn’t for the sake of the video, but what he actually said in his last message to me on skype was “You don’t deserve excuses, you deserve an apology.” and “If […] I should have just left you alone [regarding him not knowing whether to contact me or not, following my post], I deeply apologize.” That’s kind of skirting the issue. Saying “you deserve an apology” is not the same as apologizing.
Throughout the video - I mention Shannon, Corey’s ex-girlfriend, because her story is a big deal, and it’s been the reason for all of this discussion and holding Corey accountable for these things. Bless her, I support her 100% and stand behind her, as well as any other women who may have been in a relationship like that with him. Watching the video back, I can see myself unintentionally looping her and I together, and seeming to speak on her behalf without realizing. Although it’s important to note the similarities in the two stories, I would not want my opinions on the situation to be looped into hers, or for anyone to feel like I am speaking for the both of us. I apologize if it comes off that way in the video.
Basically I just want people to hear my story and form their own opinions about it. Everyone is entitled to their own views on all of this, and I, as someone who isn’t as involved in the discussions anymore, should not be seen as any sort of guide or role model as to how people should react to the situation. I mean obviously I am in no place to be making judgements on him as a person because I don’t know him… I thought I did, but I don’t know what to think anymore. It’s one of those situations where I’m damned if I do, damned if I don’t. I hope that the story will speak for itself, and you’ll be able to come to your own conclusions.
I forgive you.